Thursday, October 25, 2007

Mercy Me - I can Only Imagine

Ok...I am not a total heathen.:-P I love this group and song as well. It is hard for me to listen to this song and not cry. Abosolutely beautiful.
I have always thought this song represented the way you might feel when you meet the Lord himself. I had never thought of it as meeting someone you have loved and lost.
Great song...enjoy

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Fight night is Saturday 6pm. I always get excited to see the fighters in the cage...not everyone's cup of tea I know, but I love it.
There is about 13 fights scheduled...so 26 fighters to check pre-fight.....Fun times.
This will be the first time my hubby has gone to watch me do my thing...I am anxious for him to meet the fighters that I have gotten to know. They are a great group of guys and are a blast to hang with.
I will have quite a few people to go with me. My hubby, Eric (my brother, who usually goes), my uncle Ben may go with his Nephew so I can introduce his nephew to the fighters. He is an amateur boxer and would like to meet some cool guys he could train with and make some connections in the fight world, I am just glad I can help him where I can. Maybe he will remember me when he is a big fighter on Spike TV and take me along. :-P
I will post Sunday how the fights went...pray for an easy major injury free night, good referees and fighters to put on a good show for the crowd.

Monday, October 22, 2007

Peek into my Life

Below I have posted 2 videos from my favorite band Linkin Park. LP has been around for quite a while. The second video (One Step Closer) is from their first CD Hybrid Theory. The last video (What I've Done) is from their most recent CD, Minutes to Midnight.
My hubby, children and I all love this band. They say alot to the way people feel in their lives. Each song (both drastically different) mean a lot to me. I hope you listen and TRY to enjoy my crazy taste in music. hehe

Linkin Park - What I've Done

Same band as below...LINKIN PARK. LP has been my favorite for years. The first video is from their first CD, this video is from their most recent one. If you ask my dad...they still suck...hehehe

Linkin Park- One Step Closer

My Favorite band of all time! (Along with my hubby and 4 Haitian children who are now headbangers!!) LINKIN PARK....a little insight into my life....hehehehe
I played this song for Dr. Bernard in Haiti one time....he laughed so hard..and for the first time in his life said he was SPEECHLESS!!! No one can EVER make that man speechless! :-P

funny driving prank

This absolutely cracked me up!!!

I have a Cankle

Ok...I did my walk today with my foot sore before I went. I went 2.5 miles and WAMMO...that sucker is HUGE! I now have a gorgeous cankle. I put an ace wrap on it and need to have it
x-rayed eventually to make sure there is nothing more wrong with it. I am not sure if it is my Fibromyalgia or something much more. All I know...IS IT HURTS AND IT IS HUGE!!!

So, I may be off the walking a little bit...off to do sit ups, push ups etc...that can;t hurt the old cankle can it?

Sunday, October 21, 2007

The Diet..UGH

Ok. I have yet to say that I am on a diet....I am going for the lifestyle change instead of diet...easier on the mind and body :-)
So far, I have lost 18lbs. I have noticed, hubby has noticed, not many others mention it other than they see me all over the neighborhood with my Mp3 and tennies walking all over the place. I can go as far as 4 miles, but I pay for it the next day with leg cramps and a swollen right ankle. Every since I dislocated all my toes on the right foot by kicking my coffee table my foot has NEVER been the same. Anyhoo....I pay for it dearly so I decided to stay safer with the 3 mile walk instead...still have pain, but that extra mile kills. :-P I have started to count calories just to see how many I am eating, and I am staying in a pretty good area for weight loss. I have cut out a lot of things and find that I don't miss them as much now that I have gotten over the withdrawls.
I will post progress later...maybe I will post a photo of me in my bikini....HEHEHEHEHE
OK....now that you have all left to vomit, I will say KIDDING!!!!
Blessings

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

A Child Like Me....

I received this from the author, Lisa Schlitt. She has amazing adoption poetry. I will see if she has a website for those of you who want to get her stuff...WOW!

I wish I had a digital picture of the day I first met Kai. This poem is HIM. It takes me back to the day that I met him, in his stained shirt, scarred hand and eyes of a child that had been in the orphanage for a while without a family. He HAS this smile that lights up a room, EVERYONE says it. It is the thing that drew me to him first off. I read this and got tears in my eyes...this is my little Kai Ceus.....

A CHILD LIKE ME
With saddened eyes and head bent low,
It’s damaged goods most see,
With an unclear past and broken heart,
Who would want a child like me?

I watch you walk into the room,
From a distance I can see,
But dare I take a closer step?
Who would want a child like me?

And then I see you look my way,
You smile so tenderly,
But do I even dare to dream,
You would want a child like me?

And then as if I spoke out loud
You approach me cautiously,
I try so hard to just believe,
She will want a child like me.

But can I once let down my guard,
And trust that she will see,
Hiding beneath this old stained shirt,
Is a beautiful child like me?

My smile they say lights up a room,
I’ll be good as good can be,
“Oh Please Dear God, let her want,
A special child like me.”

I feel her hand reach out for mine,
And within her eyes I see,
A single, tiny, shining tear,
Could she want a child like me?

And when she holds me in her arms,
There’s no place I’d rather be,
For in my heart the truth is clear,
“The child she wants is ME!

Lisa J Schlitt©2007

Monday, October 15, 2007

Restaveks: Child Slaves of Haiti

Please spend the few minutes to watch this.

Titus 2

The kdis and I have started to try a new church. It is the same church the children attned AWANA's at, they know people, are well received and have just started a children's church during the main sermon. Sunday was our first day to try it. I got the kids set in the classes they needed, along with Zach and Annie (my frined Tracey's two kids who I take to AWANA's as well)...the kids all call my van the God bus and get on it Wed. and now Sun. to take them to learn about God. :-)
Once I got everyone settled I asked where the adults go to Sunday school and they pointed me tot he meeting room. Well, it has been a LONG time since i have been in Sunday school, but I was SOOO LOST. The guy was talking about the history of the Bible and how it covers the Roman empire etc....WOW...not really what I wanted to learn. Afterwards, while my head was spinning, I ran into one of the gals in my neighborhood during fellowship time. Come to find out, I should be in the beginner class as I had gone to the Adult advanced portion. Whew....I thought I was an idiot!!! ;-P
The kids and I enjoyed the service and will probably attend again next week as well as AWANAS's on Wednesday.
I came home fed everyone lunch and then napped a little took my walk and showered and went back for Women's fellowship time. They are teaching a class called TITUS 2.

Titus 2 is a class led by the Pastor's wife and it is teaching from the Bible chapter of Titus Chapter 2 verses 3-5. She also uses a book, which she will be ordering all of us...I can't think of the name of it off the top of my head though. It was a great class on how to properly be your hubby's greatest fan. How God gave woman the role of HELPER of the family and the hubby, NOT the leader. Now, don't get me wrong...it is NOT about being a mindless droll without an opinion, but to help your hubbies in the daily calling of leader of the family. We are the encourager, the companion and cheerleader for our husbands and all that they do...this allows them to lead the family as they were called to do by God. It was interesting listening to her read from this book about how what a woman says can truly affect what her hubby does and how he reacts to it, even internally. It was truly amazing and I look forward to taking the class from here and getting involved in a hopefully wonderful ministry....we shall see how it goes.
Blessings

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Matrix..What a Band!

Last night I had a lot of fun and sadness all at the same time.

I went to a local bar to watch a friend play drums in his band 'Matrix'. I have known Larry and his wife Paula since High School and I thought I would go and listen and enjoy people watching as I am not much of a drinker.
I have to say, I have never been a bar goer, and see why. I mean, when I walk in it isn't like I wouldn't fit in with all my piercings and tattoo, but the type of people I saw and the lives that they lead made me sad for them.
I saw people who were worn, 'rode hard and put away wet' they say. The women in their short skirts and the men eyeing them all the time.....they knew it. I saw the ones that the bartenders knew by name because this was their only hangout, their weekend (if not daily) routine.

I focused on one guy in particular. He stood out to me because I had recognized him. He looks exactly like a guy that fought at the XFS fights I worked last time. I knew it wasn't THE guy, but one of his family members, as they all looked alike...beautiful eyes, kind of grisly biker type with full beards and flat noses from to many breaks. He stumbled around the bar. If someone sat at his table he would get up and move to another one. He never spoke to anyone and would occasionally laugh at a joke that no one told but the voice in his head. I watched him drink beer after beer and retreat outside with some of the other patrons to partake in drug use I am sure. He would rummage thru his pockets on his cammo pants and pull out a handful of pills and put them in his mouth and swallow them with a swig of beer. His eyes were empty...his soul was empty. I felt so bad for him, thinking about how he and many like him only look forward to the next drink and drug, and it made me sad. I found myself saying a prayer for him and he is so lost in this world. I wonder if he passed away, what difference did he make in the world? It isn't to say that no one would miss him, but would anyone really notice?

I came home and told Curtis that I had a blast, the band was GREAT but the people I saw were sad. He reminded me why we don't go to bars and what did I think I was going to see. I guess I have just not thought much about it.
I think the look in the guys eyes will haunt me for a while, the look of lost. How I wanted to just bring him home and make him see that there is so much more to life than bars, booze and drugs. Of course, I think Curtis would draw the line at me bringing home odd drunks at all hours of the morning to save them. :-)

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Home Again, Home Again..Jiggity Jig

We made it home Saturday night about 7pm. Not bad for getting to spend time with family. We are all tired and grumpy from being stuck in a van with each other. 3 hours to Walla Walla, stay the night (no sleep there since I LOVE talking to my cousin Shane and his wife Kendra). On the road again Friday am to Quincy (another 3 hours). Enjoyed seeing family there, some I have not seen since I was a child and some I have never met.

Grandma Goldie's funeral was nice. It was great to hear from others in the community about someone you love. I have always been a giver, money or food to strangers etc....now I know where I got it from....Grandma Goldie never knew a stranger and was known to feed anyone who ever needed food! ;-P

Friday we stayed at my Cousin Kym's house. LOVE it....she has 4 kids (all teens or young adults now, and 1 grand daughter Bella. Bella is 2 and LOVED to play with the Little's while the Big's like to play with the older kids. We didn't get back from the funeral, dinner and 3 hour drive until 10pm, but it was still nice to stay and visit. Had little sleep that night as well.....my Aunt Pam is a snorer!!! (hehehe....thought I would get ya Pam...) I don't sleep well anyway, someone else's house is always hard for me.

Ride home was great and I am glad to be home. The kids can run amok and get ready for school tomorrow. They had the gall to ask me this morning when we are going back and when the next road trip will be......YIKES!

I did not get to meet up with my Friend Julie...SORRY JULIE! I should hope to be back Nov. 10th for my Cousin Mandy's wedding....so unless you are in Haiti getting your boys we should get together...more time to plan.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

3 Mile Mark

Today I hit the 3 mile mark. I walked 3 miles in one walk!!! I am so excited. I have been doing my 2.5 mile walk almost daily...whether inside on the treadmill (boring....) or outside in the big world (which I prefer). Today I kept walking and wanted to see what I could do. I really think I could have gone a little further, but didn't want to push myself... I knew I had kids and a hubby at home that wanted fed and wanted to be able to walk tomorrow...hehe I did my walk and then took the car to see how far I had gone....3 MILES!!!! Not bad for a fat chick! So far I have lost 16lbs!!! :-)

Oct. 6th I am taking Hunter, Demi and Kai for a 1 mile Harvest walk....it should be a blast! I am taking Nikaya if they let me push the stroller.....

Newest Adventure

Getting ready to take an adventure. I am taking the 4 kids to Walla Walla, Washington for the night on Thursday, then to Quincy, Washington to a funeral on Friday and then to Cousin Shane and Kendra's in Milton Freewater, Oregon Friday night and home Saturday. My Great Grandma Goldie, a Wonderful old broad, passed away at the rip age of 91. She was hoping to make it as old as her father, who passed away at 108. It will be nice to see family again, but I hate that it has to be due to a funeral. The kids will see some family they have never met, and will see others they have only seen once or twice. It will be good to go and visit since I don't see many of them often due to distance.
I wonder if I am crazy....taking 4 kids by myself on a road trip. At least the one leg of the journey is 3 hours, then we have a 'sleep over' with cousins...then another 3 hour journey for a funeral. I am borrowing Tracey's portable DVD players so the kids have something to do and hopefully leave me be for the drive....I will let you know if my sanity survives when I get back.
Curtis will be enjoying life as a bachelor (with a house, cats, dogs, fish and turtle to feed), but alone none the less....TV to himself, computer all night long and NO NOISE. Maybe I should send HIM on the trip and I stay home.
Peace my peeps!

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

OOPPSS..Demi's Tooth

I noticed that I forgot to post about Demi and her tooth.

Labor day, Demi was taking a shower for school the next day. She was turning around and slid and fell in the shower. When she fell, her face landed on the lip of the shower where the floor meets the door. She jammed her right permanent tooth UP into her gums and almost into her sinus cavity.
I heard a thump, scream (from Demi) and a swear word (from my hubby). He started yelling for me to come help. I called my mommy (what you always do when you freak out) to see who she would call since the Dentist was not answering his phone and there was no emergency number given. I called the Dentist at his home and left him a message..hoping and praying that he would get it and call me back. Within 5 minutes he returned our call and said to meet him at his office.
At first we thought she had knocked her tooth out, but it was still in her mouth, but shoved way up into the gum line. It tore her gums, cut her lip open on the bottom and chewed her inner lip to shreds. The Dentist was so good to her. He numbed her up and had to use 3 different pliers to pull the tooth out. He put it back where it belongs and bonded it with a wire to her 4 other front teeth, in hopes that it will knit bone back to it and not be lost for good. This tooth lost was a permanent tooth and right in the front. It did not break the root, but broke the bone all around it disconnecting the tooth from the skull....yeah, it hurt that bad!!!
We will go back in the next couple of weeks to check the viability of the tooth in hopes it can be saved. If not, she will have to wear a retainer with a fake tooth on it until she is old enough for an implant.
Demi has done well with all of it, knowing that she is beautiful even if she doesn't have a front tooth!
Keep the prayers up for her tooth to be saved.

Dinner, Birthdays and Toes

Saturday Demi Roo had a sleep over with her friend Annie. Annie was celebrating her 8th B-day...HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNIE!!!

We went to dinner with Curt's Aunt Peggy and her ex-hubby Don. Don't get weird, her and Don are best friends and he is a great guy. We enjoyed getting to see them, especially since Don is heading off today, Wednesday, for his home country of Sri Lanka for 6 months. We had a great time guys and wish Don a safe trip home to see family. Peg-you need to call us if you get bored...I am always up for a movie!!!

Curt celebrated his 37th birthday September 5th. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE HANDSOMEST HUBBY EVER!!! He turned 37...3 years until his mid life crisis he says!! :-P
During his lovely birthday weekend, he stubbed his little toe on his right foot and broke it..YOUCH!!! He is limping along nicely with a toe that is twice the size of normal and many shades of purple, green, yellow and blue. He is currently sporting sandals with socks to work (can you say SEXY) since his shoes do not fit. hehehe ( I promised Gimpy Joe I wouldn't laugh, but I cannot help it..)

Demi's mouth is healing up nicely, we go back in another week or so to see how the tooths viability is doing. We are hoping to see some bone growth going on and that the tooth can be saved! Keep up the prayers!

That is all that is happening with the Kovick clan for now...blessings to everyone out there

Saturday, September 08, 2007

XFS

Last night I got the gig of a lifetime....at least for me. hehe
I worked as Ring Side Medic for the XFS fights. This is a huge arena that houses many pro activities. This was an Amateur fight, however, meeting with the management and promotion team that runs the Pro fights puts me in good running for the job of Medic for their events. Needless to say, they liked my 'work' and the fighters are learning who I am...amateur and Pro. I am very excited to go and hang and watch the fights, a big hobby of mine, use my Medic skills and get to know a lot of people. I had several people come up to me from the audience later and tell me that they thought I did a great job and was very attentive to the fighters and their needs. The Judges are getting to know me and know that I know what I am doing.....YEAH! The fighters as well as the Judges know that I am willing to "be the bad guy" when it comes to calling a fight due to injury"...even when I am booed. I was booed last night by my largest crowd ever...around 1500-2000 people....I LOVE making new friends.hehe
Post more later on if I get the gig......for now it looks like I am doing another Medic job on Oct. 6th at a smaller venue and then possibly the larger venue again Oct. 27th!!!

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Finding Peace in Times of Distress

One of my Myspace friends, Haitian Born, posted this. I found it very relevant to the spiritual warfare I have felt in the last few days. Warafe that has been directed at me, the Haitian adoption process, and to a Dear Friend of mine who has nothing to hide...


Finding Peace in Times of Distress
by Kay Arthur

When the hour is dark, when the situation is desperate, when we are humbled and brought very low, we finally begin looking and longing for God's peace. Trembling, we grope through the darkness, longing to know that all will be well.When the angel of Jehovah appeared to Gideon (Judges 6), he was crouching in the dark confines of a winepress, threshing wheat in secret to protect it-and himself-from the Midianite invaders. This was not a new way to thresh grain, it was cowardice. Listen to how the angel of the Lord addresses Gideon.The angel of the LORD appeared to him and said to him, "The LORD is with you, O valiant warrior." Then Gideon said to him, "O my lord, if the LORD is with us, why then has all this happened to us? ...the LORD has abandoned us and given us into the hand of Midian." The LORD looked at him and said, "Go in this your strength and deliver Israel from the hand of Midian. Have I not sent you?" (Judges 6:12-14)At first Gideon questioned this angel of the Lord and complained about his circumstances. How could God really love Israel? How could God really care about Gideon when they were all in such distress, danger, and poverty?Gideon did not yet know to Whom he was speaking. This angel spoke as Jehovah Himself, and when Gideon finally realized he'd been discussing politics and religion with God-face to face-he was rightfully terrified:"Alas, O Lord GOD! For now I have seen the angel of the LORD face to face." The LORD said to him, "Peace to you, do not fear; you shall not die." Then Gideon built an altar there to the LORD and named it The LORD is Peace. (Judges 6:22-24)When do we first encounter the name Jehovah-shalom? Where does God first reveal His name as The Lord is Peace?In the presence of a man who is desperately afraid....a man who is literally walled in by circumstances...a man who is worried and discouraged and has no peace in his heart.When Gideon's eyes were at last opened to see that the Lord had taken a personal interest in his situation, that God was present with him in the midst of all this darkness and fear, he worshiped the Lord by a new name-Jehovah-shalom, The Lord is Peace.In the days to come, the Lord was going to put Gideon in some very unpeaceful situations. In some ways Gideon would face more stresses and challenges than he had ever faced in his young life. Learning this business of being a "valiant warrior" wasn't going to be easy.But no matter what happened from this point on, Gideon could look back to an altar. He could look back at a moment in time when Jehovah-shalom said to him, "Peace to you, do not fear."Beloved, do you ever feel as if you're trying to thresh wheat in a winepress? Surrounded by an enemy who presses in on you and tries to steal every grain of peace and gladness out of your life? Do you ever begin to wonder where your God is in the midst of your hurt and worry?How rightly Gideon named that altar, The Lord is Peace. True peace cannot be found in any other place than in a right relationship with God.We cannot base our peace in the circumstances and situations of life. We must not let our peace be centered in another man or woman-no matter how dear they are to us.We dare not allow peace to depend on sunny skies, a full stomach, a balanced checkbook, a healthy body, or a harmonious home. I believe the Lord sometimes allows situations that strip away the shallow, surface peace on which we have come to depend. He allows us to be distressed and in turmoil and unable to find the answers we need from our husbands, wives, friends, or counselors.In those times, as with Gideon, we need to discover that God is Jehovah-shalom.As Paul wrote to the Ephesians, "He Himself is our peace" (Ephesians 2:14). Once you really understand this and worship God as Jehovah-shalom, you can have peace no matter what storms sweep over the horizon.Jesus told His disciples this very thing in the last few hours before the Cross. These men were in terrible turmoil, and things were about to get much worse. Here is Jesus' promise:"Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives, do I give to you. Do not let not your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful." (John 14:27)"These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world." (John 16:33)Where do you run when you need peace? Is your first response to go looking for a person or to pick up the phone?Before you do, Beloved, run into the shelter of His name. When you find Him, you will find peace because...He is Peace.