Tuesday, April 22, 2008

The Weight So Far

OK. So far the total weight loss I have experienced has been great. I hate to say numbers because it say how big I was and how far I have to go, but I am going to step out of the comfort zone and give it a shot. I began this journey at 243lbs and have now reached 201....42lbs down. I have a ways to go, but do not have a magic number in mind. If I went by BMI charts and sizes recommend for my height of 4'10" I am supposed to be no more than around 100lbs. HAHAHA...that is NEVER happening. My Dr. even believes that that number is not a possibility so I am OK with it.

One thing I have found, is that I have a huge problem dressing myself. For years, I have hidden myself in my clothes. I prefer tents to shirts and have always felt like if anything is actually touching my body it is to tight. Enter now.....I have to dress for my size as all of my clothes are falling off (not a bad problem to have mind you, but definitely a problem.) Today I took the gift card I got for Christmas at Target and bought a few shirts. It was an absolute struggle. I tried shorts on but could not find any to fit right. I have lost alot of weight in my waist (the fact that I now have one is fantastic!) but still struggle with my tummy chub...so if it fits my waist there is no way I feel comfortable in the tummy area; if it fits my tummy it falls off of my waist and doesn't even come close to touching it, literally.
I think I truly have some form of body dysmorphia, like Anorexics (which I struggled with as a teen) and cannot see myself for the true vision of what I really am.....something else to work on I guess..he he

When Curt got home I tried the shirts on for him. Of course, he always tells me I look nice, but he does notice how you can see my boobs now...hehehe...perv moment...sorry!

Anyway, I am anxious to get to a weight with a 1 in front of it....it has been YEARS since I saw anything with that number......I will let you know how it goes and will try to go out of the comfort zone to post some pic's of me before and after...once again, it is admitting there was an issue and I am not sure I am ready to do that in total public yet.

Keep the prayers coming...I need them!

6 comments:

One Crowded House said...

Congrats.... Way to go!

And hubbies are supposed to want to see their
wife's boobies- that's their job!

Tanya

Julie said...

Yahoo! You are well on your way to ONE-derland. I have to lose weight too. I do pretty good in the summer with walking. When I exercise, I automatically eat less. But, it is winter for 6 months here and any ground I have gained in the summer is lost in the winter.

Becky Hinchley said...

Good for you!!! Doesn't it feel great???

Becky

ange said...

Woo Hoo LeAnne! You are rocking woman. I am so proud of you. You have certainly been working hard. I can't wait to see you, ok, post pictures so I can see you....... You hubby must be one HAPPY man to be able to see you..... um..... ya enough said..
love you my friend and keep up the hard work
ange

Amy said...

Let's hear it for boobs! You're doing great! I'm so proud of you!!!

Love,
Amy

Sherry said...

This is awesome LeAnne! I am so happy for you. I totally commiserate about the tummy chub/waist issues. I have this very same problem going on and am working hard to get the flub off. Keep up the good work and YAY for boobage!